Well, life certainly is interesting. After the whole Shannon fiasco, I killed my interest in relationships and was pretty much back to my old tricks, and started dating around a bit again. I went out with Laura a few more times, then my ex from 8 *years* ago pops up and we start hanging out a bit. Then my Carmen and I start rebuilding our friendship after I forgave her for her (disgusting) relationship with my friend Jim. We hung out a bit too much though, because we started falling into some of the old routine... We just have so much in common, and enjoy being around each other so much, that its easy to forget sometimes that we've been through this time and time again. In the end, for whatever reason, we don't seem to work... Jim ends up going @#%@#%ing nuts for no reason at all, and I have to go up to the bar to tell him that if he doesn't stop contacting & fucking with Carmen, shes going ahead w/ a restraining order. Of course if he *had* actually done anything, they would have had to get a restraining order against me, but I would have hated to do all that to someone I still somehow call a friend. Some guys just have serious issues dealing with women, and go psycho for a bit. He has his good points as well, but man this is obviously his Achille's Heel in life. This just ends up throwing Carmen and I even closer, and things start to get complicated. Oh, also Shannon apologizes profusely for the ridiculously @#$@#ed
up way she treated me, and I forgave her.
I've started to come to the conclusion that I'm a forgiving fool.
So Shannon and I start hanging out again, and with her it also started to get easier to act like what she did didn't happen....aaaaand....
I end up talking to four different girls at the same time. Wtf. All with baggage of some kind or another between us. I really need to take a break from women in general, I believe. I love Carmen, but I know that we're just not cut out for each other romantically in the end. I adore being around Shannon, but I can't forget how terribly she acted, and that I can't open myself up to that kind of damage again. Laura is @#%@ing 20. years. old. -and acts it. Shes still fun to hang around sometimes, but I've quickly come to the conclusion that I can't let her gothy cuteness distract me from the fact that...um...shes @#%@#ing
*20*! Kari, well, things are pretty cool between us, as we're really just old friends now, albeit cuddly ones. Still, I have to be careful with that one..
Oh, and apparently my insurance lapsed for 5 days back in October of last year, and I had no idea that my license plates had been revoked. Well, an officer kindly informed me of that fact two weeks ago when he took my bloody plates. So I've been unable to go anywhere. God bless Carmen's heart though- shes been taking me back and forth to work, even though being around me so much is playing havoc with her emotionally. I told her that I would just start trying to find another way to get around, but she insisted on the grounds that I would do the same for her. Which I would. I really hope we can get our heads straight to where we can be around each other without all the confusion and jealousy. Man, does anyone actually read all this stuff? I hope not. I'm really not into drama at all, but apparently I've been picked for the lead role lately...
Good news though- I head to the beach in 3 days to hang out with two of my oldest best friends - Amber and Ani (& their respective guys). What a trip its going to be seeing those two friends from such drastically different times in my life meeting and hanging out. I can't wait! For whoever actually keeps up with what I write, I promise my next post will have *no drama*!!! This post was just a bigass recap XD